Can't we survive alone? Sometimes I will really have so many questions like, "Why do we need to socialize?", "Why humans can't just standalone?", "Why we must interact with so many people?"...

If you give it a serious thought, humans are where problems come from. Every single working day, I'm so fed-up with people pushing and knocking me in the trains, with the government who bring in so many FOREIGN TALENTS who made our country so super crowded, with all the students who think that they are the bosses - wanting things in their way and nothing else, with the bus driver who drives so slow when I'm really running late. I do agree that some unhappiness that is caused everyday can be prevented if, eg. I leave house earlier to prevent from being mega late. But there are just things that cannot be controlled on our end.

Okay, not finding satisfaction in God is making me very picky and fussy and touchy, I admit. I'm almost picking on every stranger I meet everyday, if they knock me I'm really gonna stare at them. Or some super duper kiasu auntie knock me I will really go "so what if you are old? it's just a matter of time I turn old like you!". I kinda feel, not being close to God made me a more selfish person. Does it kill to knock me? No. It's just that I'm so self-centered that I only saw myself in the whole situation. And this is not the right act to display.

Maybe I should start reading God's words every morning. It is nice to see people sending bible verses to their friends early in the morning, just like one girl I saw this morning. I should start planning then! Wasted so many years already, don't want to waste away my 2012. :)

None but God can satisfy the longing of the immortal soul; as the heart was made for Him, He only can fill it. - Richard Trench