Trusting is such a hard thing to do.
Is it because humans just tend to keep things to themselves as self-protection therefore it's hard to trust people around?
Nothing happened. Just a random thought.
I now regret sending out that mail. I should have just let things be as it is. I do have the feel it's better without me. oh well. I CAN'T BELIEVE I CRIED LIKE MAD OVER IT! BOO!
for the one who stand by me, GLADYS YANG! I LOVE YOU! I may have to wait till you hop by my blog to see this. heeee
我想要相信我的選擇是對的。就算我現在可能不這麽認爲。FAITH!
我想要相信我的選擇是對的。就算我現在可能不這麽認爲。FAITH!
I made my own tang yuan today! FROM SCRATCH! happy! Finally get to eat the tang yuan with brown sugar inside! yumyum!
Went to church and learned how to make my own ribbon!!!!
It's like a cute can!!!! Love these handmade stuff!!! (:
MARY! isnt it cuteeee? heeeee. I SEW IT ALL BY MYSELF OKAYYY!
Now I understand the meaning of irreversible. Some things are never going to be the same anymore. I'm no longer feeling as comfortable. People are getting closer with people as I step away. Which I can't blame anyone because I walked away first. Even though efforts are being made, but it just felt different now. Well. Some come and some go, didn't I already know that already?
Tell me i'm crazy. But I REALLY WANNA GO THE CONCERTTTT! Please please tickets, dont be so expensiveeeee. (:
Cos it's BIG BANG!!!! ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥
JIYONGGGG!! ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥
And ah gongggg! ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥
Cos it's BIG BANG!!!! ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥
JIYONGGGG!! ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥
And ah gongggg! ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥
I like Liar Game movie! I like Akiyama-kun! Although my stomach was making a big hoo-haa in there. :/
But I like parts of the movie where I couldnt guess this and that! Seriously, the person who thought of this whole thing ahhh. The brain really very li hai can!
And my internship has ended! Finally. Like I post on my facebook, I miss my life being a student. But I think I'll miss working here. It's not that bad working there actually. The people are nice. And I was shock to see my department boss email me when I check my mail just now! He thanked us for helping out and everything la. Seriously shocked. ahhaha.
Was out looking for job yesterday! Recruit express of course. No matter how unwilling I am, I can't deny that they are fast. I wanna get a job! Money depleting! With maomao, we went walk walk after that. It was nice. Since we havent been going out like during the afternoon. (: and and after Vanessa joined us! WE WENT FOR SAKAE BUFFET! Sounds nice! But my stomach really couldnt take it. -_- But it surely was nice hanging out. (:
Somethings are indeed unpredictable. Well...
But I like parts of the movie where I couldnt guess this and that! Seriously, the person who thought of this whole thing ahhh. The brain really very li hai can!
And my internship has ended! Finally. Like I post on my facebook, I miss my life being a student. But I think I'll miss working here. It's not that bad working there actually. The people are nice. And I was shock to see my department boss email me when I check my mail just now! He thanked us for helping out and everything la. Seriously shocked. ahhaha.
Was out looking for job yesterday! Recruit express of course. No matter how unwilling I am, I can't deny that they are fast. I wanna get a job! Money depleting! With maomao, we went walk walk after that. It was nice. Since we havent been going out like during the afternoon. (: and and after Vanessa joined us! WE WENT FOR SAKAE BUFFET! Sounds nice! But my stomach really couldnt take it. -_- But it surely was nice hanging out. (:
Somethings are indeed unpredictable. Well...
Some friends are just meant to leave. Just like I was told, by someone who already left.
Well, some may have left, some are still there.
Now, I enjoy spending time with poly friends, church friends, for they are people who just stand by you. It felt nice to have them around.
Some people I don't feel like bother with them because, I felt fake when I'm with them. Like a sian. But not very nice to just dont bother about them huh...
I'm surprise. Because I'm still upset upon thinking of it. I didn't know the purpose of the add, but I just accepted it. I'm so not going to think more about it. Maybe it's just for the number. lalalalala...
It's going to be Sunday soon! oh shucks! I'm not done with something yet! D: Like so not enough time, so many things to do. Seriously, I dont want to enter working life. It's like super tiring. ):
And and! tomorrow meeting GGs!! Watching Inceptions! MY LEONARDO DICAPRIO!!! hahahah! Heard from Meepok that it's quite interesting la. SO LOOKING FORWARD TO IT!! And also, to take more photos with GGs is making me looking forward to it so much!
And and and. I'm so going to miss Grace. ):
It's going to be Sunday soon! oh shucks! I'm not done with something yet! D: Like so not enough time, so many things to do. Seriously, I dont want to enter working life. It's like super tiring. ):
And and! tomorrow meeting GGs!! Watching Inceptions! MY LEONARDO DICAPRIO!!! hahahah! Heard from Meepok that it's quite interesting la. SO LOOKING FORWARD TO IT!! And also, to take more photos with GGs is making me looking forward to it so much!
And and and. I'm so going to miss Grace. ):
Recentlyyyyyyy... I've been feeling very reluctant to go work. Like super tired, super lack of rest. I always doze off from checking the mails. Seriously, the people there are nice. Just that it's not a place I feel belong to even after 3 weeks.
And during work I sms retard and zaini a lot. ZAINI has officially become my GAY BUDDY! Which makes Eugene one too. heeee. They really helped me pass my time. :D I'm wishing.. wishing that the next 9 weeks pass fasterrr! seriously! FASTER!! I just want to stay home and rest.
And these days, I like to take 166 home. The ride on the bus is like super longggg. Actually not la. Probably 1 hour plus till I reach the stop I want to alight. And while on the bus, I can seriously enjoy something that is free, yet very pretty. It's the SKY! Seriously, God made something so beautiful just above us. All we have to do is just look up and there it is, a pretty sky to look at. And then I had a 20mins walk home. Along the way, listen to music, look at the sky. It's like so enjoyable. It's the most enjoyable thing I look forward to everyday, apart from sleeping. (:
PRETTY! ❤
The girly girls! (: Out with them on monday. (: I want more outings. But sometimes i'm having second thoughts. I.... don't know.
What I love about these girls :
Steph, she's always nice to open the door for us. Sharing sweets with us, If someone bullied you she will be angry together with you. Someone who shares the feeling you are feeling. My pretty Pie.
Liangpieng, nice friendly girl! Who goes randomly laughing at things which even me dont see the laughing point. Always sms-ing with "someone". Making me curious, wont your phone bill explode? hahaha. My Cutie Pie that is, ah pieng.
QiuRong, like I said before, one whom I didnt think I will hang out with. But is a really nice person, thinks of good things on your behalf and give you suggestions with good intentions, if you got what I mean.
Dawn, the retard-est retard I've ever seen. Also my BB. hahah. She's nice. Just that she likes to hit people when laughing. And laughing point is as low as me. Always not able to decide on things. Just deciding on eating Laksa or Fish rice can let her spend half a day deciding. hah!
Jasmine, not as fierce as she seems. Genuinely doing what she feels. You wont feel that she's fake and would enjoy having her around.
Vivian, able to cry easily. seriously, I was freaked out when I saw her cry in the canteen the other time. haha. But she recovers fast too. And her love for Spongebob... the only person who decorates the FYP table with spongebob and everything else. hahaha.
CYZ, she doesnt look very friendly at first. Wasnt one I will feel like coming close with. But after that you will discover she's actually quite nice. Not as unfriendly as she seems. I heard, she's just lazy to bother. hahaha
I met up with Zaini, Eugene and Retard as well on last friday. hahaha. I was waiting for the day to end so badly that day. And I was so excited to see Retard at the train station. And seeing Eugene was funny, with no reason. hahah. I see him I just want to laugh. omgosh la. He's a gay with Zai! hahahha. well random.
And as IAP goes on, I'm missing the FYP labmates.
I miss Vivian, bringing all laughters to the room. I miss Jasmine, together with me speaking all softly and discussing about people. I miss Weide, reminding me that I have to do my project. I miss Lijian, for his fisherman's friend and his smiley on facebook which I initially doubt it was him. I miss Zaini, for I always random call out his name just to say a "Hi". I miss Eugene, for his very NICE birthday song sang on Qiurong's birthday.I miss Fitri's phone's ringtone, for it's the ringtone that I only hear in FYP. I quite miss the DTs, for they are so nice and not writing the exact time that we reached. Others not mentioned might be because I'm not that close to you to write anything. (:
I'm gonna meet Mel, Jo, Jack, Jf today! For ck's birthday chalet. hmmmm. But before that, I'm going Jiahui's grandma's funeral. It's such a big jump of feelings. Seeing one wasting his life away just because he's young, and seeing another group grief over the lost of someone whom they want to spend more time with. sigh...
Well, I didnt share about my birthday celebration right! hmmmm. I had one with secondary school mates, one with church mates, one with poly mates. errr. i think that's all. I'm officially 21 now. Seriously, when you turned to 2_, the subsequent numbers chase up very fast.
and then my BAOBEI! ♥
Then with Poly friends.
Rick actually had the Junsu thing poke on the strawberry shortcake. And then he tells me, the thing is got reason one.... Okay, this is roughly what was said,
Junsu knows your birthday coming, so that time when his brother Junho came Singapore, and he also came, he gave me this cake, say he cant come on your birthday. So ask me to give this to you when celebrating your birthday.
Please note that, Junsu came with Junho on BEFORE 1st May, which is around 29th april. SO! If he kept the cake till the day we met, 27 May, THE CAKE WOULD HAVE STINK LIKE HELL! hahaha. But thanks for the thought anyway. :D
And and. Umma got me THIS present. Was super excited because this was the first thing I ever had regarding them! excluding other small things like photos.
Must put big big cos I'm really excited! hahahaha. (: Thanks umma.
Sometimes I do feel some stuff which I dont want to feel. I feel in some places, I'm drifting apart with some people. But someone assured me that I'm feeling wrong about it. But, I seriously felt so.
and I saw this, and I love it.
You block your dream when you allow your fear to grow bigger than your faith.
Just like one chio. (:
This post just consist of so many things that I felt it's so messy. but who cares? I dont.
