I can't seem to mingle in well with people these days. Maybe because I no longer want to put in the effort to mingle, to even laugh.

People are nice, but not people I'm close to. I don't feel belong in there? I'm just like a passerby. Although I thought that not being close shouldn't be much of a big deal anyway, but it certainly is a hard time if they are all the people that you have in that few days.

It does feel good to have a getaway, to be still be blessed with the ability to serve. But there are just some uncomfortable in it.

I was feeling really out, until singspiration, when singing the song, then I know I shouldnt attend the event and letting people affect me. Shouldn't God be the reason for me to feel happy enough? and indeed I felt better. Maybe this meant that even if one day I really go to another church, I will really be able to focus on God and not serve because of people.