Wednesday, December 19, 2007
okay.. today is suppose to to feel good but am not really that good. yup. something unhappy happen la. this thing is like something that i wont want to happen one la.yup. super not good la i think. my attitude wasnt good la. but i dont think you are that good too la. so i was like d*mn not happy la. erm.which i should not feel that way la. yup. but anyway. was like thinking i should have like no lose my temper la. thou it's really hard to do so la. but.. anyway. i hope things would turn out better after the talk lo. yup.
sometimes i think i very very very very very fake la. PEOPLE, the likuan you know may not be the real likuan you know okay. i think no one knows me better than God la. i think i dont even know myself that well la. yup. i was thinking when i was on my way home just now. then i think i can be really FAKE la. like sometimes i dont want to be the odd one out i can really like really be like he same as the others la. but thats not the real me la. erm. just afraid to lose friends la. which shouldnt be the reason la. so one day if i talk to you and seem to agree with you alot, it might not be real from the heart la. yup. thou there are times when it's real la. but i think you all wont know la. yup. maybe all i'm doing now is cos i dont want to lose friends la.
Now, I'm tired of being a fake person la. like at everywhere to everyone i'm fake la. it' lke a all time la. there are times when i dont wish to interact with people la. like this way then i dont have to do all those fake stuff. like it comes very naturally la. as in now. yup. how i wish i'm just more real la. like right from the beginning.I'M JUST SO TIRED AND I DON'T WANT TO FACE ANYONE!!!!! the feel is like getting worse la.
认为是真得并不一定是真的。认为是假的也不一定是假的。所以，以后我的真假就有你们自己判定吧。
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