Can't we survive alone? Sometimes I will really have so many questions like, "Why do we need to socialize?", "Why humans can't just standalone?", "Why we must interact with so many people?"...
If you give it a serious thought, humans are where problems come from. Every single working day, I'm so fed-up with people pushing and knocking me in the trains, with the government who bring in so many FOREIGN TALENTS who made our country so super crowded, with all the students who think that they are the bosses - wanting things in their way and nothing else, with the bus driver who drives so slow when I'm really running late. I do agree that some unhappiness that is caused everyday can be prevented if, eg. I leave house earlier to prevent from being mega late. But there are just things that cannot be controlled on our end.
Okay, not finding satisfaction in God is making me very picky and fussy and touchy, I admit. I'm almost picking on every stranger I meet everyday, if they knock me I'm really gonna stare at them. Or some super duper kiasu auntie knock me I will really go "so what if you are old? it's just a matter of time I turn old like you!". I kinda feel, not being close to God made me a more selfish person. Does it kill to knock me? No. It's just that I'm so self-centered that I only saw myself in the whole situation. And this is not the right act to display.
Maybe I should start reading God's words every morning. It is nice to see people sending bible verses to their friends early in the morning, just like one girl I saw this morning. I should start planning then! Wasted so many years already, don't want to waste away my 2012. :)
None but God can satisfy the longing of the immortal soul; as the heart was made for Him, He only can fill it. - Richard Trench
It has been great! Eating lots of chocolate, cakes, junks, pizza, blah blah blah. Seriously growing much fats! Oh no.
And it is my first time receiving a cake like personally. I mean, not birthday cake.
And it was all fun having gift exchange in church. We all like the gifts we all got! :)
So overall, it's good! (Y)
Anyway, a year is coming to an end. Really really fast! Every thing just passed by so quickly. It seems like not long ago I was still studying, I was still preparing for examinations, I was still worried about what job to take up, I was still 22 years old. Although I'm still 22 now, but soon I'm gonna turn 23. Oh well.
It hasnt been exactly a good year, at least for me. There seem to be this human issue for me everywhere with everyone! Really, human-matters are the toughest matter to resolve. Okay, this is all so troublesome.
New year resolutions for 2011, all forgotten. Can't seem to remember what I wrote last year, but I'm pretty sure not all are fulfilled. But since 2011 is going to be over, I cant do much about it. I only can do better for 2012, right? That's it! I shall set some 2012 new year resolutions, which are achievable, soon!
It has been ages since I last blog! Seriously thinking who would still be reading this but well, doesn't matter even if no one reads it. :)
Today, attended a wedding then I was out with Vanessa and Gladys.
Sometimes I wonder if all comfortability are fake? Okay, skip that.
Lastly, my buys for the day! Loving my new shoe, bag and necklace! :)
Today, attended a wedding then I was out with Vanessa and Gladys.
Sometimes I wonder if all comfortability are fake? Okay, skip that.
Lastly, my buys for the day! Loving my new shoe, bag and necklace! :)
I can't seem to mingle in well with people these days. Maybe because I no longer want to put in the effort to mingle, to even laugh.
People are nice, but not people I'm close to. I don't feel belong in there? I'm just like a passerby. Although I thought that not being close shouldn't be much of a big deal anyway, but it certainly is a hard time if they are all the people that you have in that few days.
It does feel good to have a getaway, to be still be blessed with the ability to serve. But there are just some uncomfortable in it.
I was feeling really out, until singspiration, when singing the song, then I know I shouldnt attend the event and letting people affect me. Shouldn't God be the reason for me to feel happy enough? and indeed I felt better. Maybe this meant that even if one day I really go to another church, I will really be able to focus on God and not serve because of people.
People are nice, but not people I'm close to. I don't feel belong in there? I'm just like a passerby. Although I thought that not being close shouldn't be much of a big deal anyway, but it certainly is a hard time if they are all the people that you have in that few days.
It does feel good to have a getaway, to be still be blessed with the ability to serve. But there are just some uncomfortable in it.
I was feeling really out, until singspiration, when singing the song, then I know I shouldnt attend the event and letting people affect me. Shouldn't God be the reason for me to feel happy enough? and indeed I felt better. Maybe this meant that even if one day I really go to another church, I will really be able to focus on God and not serve because of people.
SO CUTE AND FUNNY!
This?
or this?
actually I feel that the Korean sings nicer.
Just a quote of the day. Nothing much.
Sometimes I wish I can just choose what I want to input into my brain. I don't want things that upsets me, I don't want to live in stress, I don't want to leave my comfort zone. But I guess all these are not possible if I don't wanna be self-centered.
okay. i really want to rant. just let me say it out. okay. work has started for me for about 2 weeks now. frankly speaking, the colleagues are nice, friendly, willing to help etc. but i've been having a very serious problem. i wonder what's wrong with my brain that i cant seem to remember a lot of things that's taught. am i having some brain tumor inside that's making things much much harder to absorb for me? maybe poly terms and university terms are really different. some things is really hard to get into my head! and i'm really frustrated over it! okay, it does sound dumb, but seriously, i asked the temp staff questions until i also quite annoyed with myself sometimes! and i also know i keep asking like quite annoying. but i really cant remember what i was suppose to do. and i have to keep track of so many things that i feel i cant! and i mean CANT multi-task at all! quite demoralized by this actually. like i thought i would be able to do okay/well, in the end i barely make it.
and this temp staff who's teaching me, i have to say, he is having very good methods to keep track of every single thing. but there's really many steps to ways he actually do his things! and i got a feel he expects me to do things in his way. it's very hard to! even copy and paste something on excel he can correct me and say i shouldnt do that! okay he has his reason to support but then! it's really uncomfortable to follow exactly what he wants me to do! so uncomfortable until i made a mess with just copy and paste in excel. imagine that. okay, skip that. because i cant deny that he does helped me a lot in work.
okay, end of ranting. maybe in future i will refrain from talking about such things outside. i'll just write on my blog! a good way to stop gossip? haha, maybe.
I've watched Red Riding Hood! Because of some mis-com, Eugene thought we would be watching Big Momma so he would actually go watch The Adjustment Bureau with his family. SO! We changed plan, watched Red Riding Hood instead. It's good actually! Didnt expect some stuff actually. haha. Me like! (:
And daddy bought a new camera home! Like a excited! heee. Can spam photos in future! ^^
And my life in NUS has started. hmmm. I shall say, people there are nice, very willing to teach and help you around if you are lost or whatever. Just that there are many terms, processes of how things goes to remember and get them into my head. Alright, I've got to really ABSORB! But it does is nice to have people like Waiyee and Kaixuan around. They do make me feel more comfortable with the surrounding. (:
